It was a Sunday morning at Church, not a regular Sunday because I was leading worship this week. I led worship last Sunday, but I was still a bit nervous this week, my throat was scratchy and I could feel a little bit of sinus pressure in my head. I walked over to where my wife and two and a half year old daughter were sitting and was greeted with a huge around the neck kind of hug. Abby (daughter) seemed a little clingy this morning. I kneeled down on the floor and she stood right up on my knees and just wrapped her arms around my neck and held on. As she reached around she tucked one of her hands below my collar and I could feel her fingers rubbing my neck. It was one of those moments that you tell yourself, “don’t ever forget this”. A perfect moment of Love, protection, grace and trust. What I haven’t told you is that Abby is adopted, an orphan who was grafted into our family, which is the reason that these moments are so special. There is a whole host of things that I could write about with regard to the ‘grafting-in’, but I’ll save that for another post.
When Abby grabbed me and held on tight, I could only respond like a Father and squeeze her back. As she moved her face to mine, I matched her move and we sat cheek to cheek for a minute. As she moved her fingers on my neck under my collar, I rubbed her neck too. It was perfect harmony and perfect peace. It was good. I hated to have to peel her off to play music, but I had too. As we were playing I started to think about that moment and it became very clear that this is God’s desire. That we grab on to Him, that when He is kneeling next to us, we just step right up on His knees and wrap our arms around His neck. Remember that Jesus said: “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these. Truly I tell you, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it.” So this begs the question: If God is who He says He is, our Father in Heaven, will He respond to us as I responded to Abigail ? Will He match our desire to be close to Him? Will He move closer to us as we move as we move closer to him?
I know that this is difficult to comprehend, especially as we are unable to physically see or touch Him. So another question must be asked: Is the self-less commitment to helping the less fortunate a kiss on the cheek to God (Father)? Is the faceless simple act of kindness any given day a hug around the neck to our Dad? I know that it feels so good to be praising Him and singing to Him during a worship service, but is that really the ‘hug around the neck”? I’m NOT, NOT, NOT discounting our time of worship, be it in a corporate setting or while we are alone in our closet, I’m just asking the question. What is the SPECIAL moment ? Is it when we are beaten down and in a place of surrender? Is it the time where we have exhausted all of our own power and are forced to lean on Him? Or is it when we seek Him in the Morning, Day and Night? Is it when we lean on Him to be our everything ?
Maybe its none of the above, I don’t claim to know. What I do know is this, as a man with the Heart of a Father, nothing felt better than that moment when my child, cleaved to me, PROVING to me that I was her protector, helper, sustainer and father.
May we all seek to relate to our Father in Heaven in a more intense and intimate way.